Ce grand malheur, de ne pouvoir etre seul.
LA BRUYERE
IT WAS well said of a certain German book that "er lasst sich nicht lesen"-
it does not permit itself to be read. There are some secrets which do not
permit themselves to be told. Men die nightly in their beds, wringing the
hands of ghostly confessors, and looking them piteously in the eyes- die
with despair of heart and convulsion of throat, on account of the
hideousness of mysteries which will not suffer themselves to be revealed.
Now and then, alas, the conscience of man takes up a burden so heavy in
horror that it can be thrown down only into the grave. And thus the
essence of all crime is undivulged.
Not long ago, about the closing in of an evening in autumn, I sat at the
large bow- window of the D-- Coffee-House in London. For some months I
had been ill in health, but was now convalescent, and, with returning
strength, found myself in one of those happy moods which are so
precisely the converse of ennui-moods of the keenest appetency, when
the film from the mental vision departs- achlus os prin epeen- and the
intellect, electrified, surpasses as greatly its everyday condition, as does
the vivid yet candid reason of Leibnitz, the mad and flimsy rhetoric of
Gorgias. Merely to breathe was enjoyment; and I derived positive
pleasure even from many of the legitimate sources of pain. I felt a calm
but inquisitive interest in every thing. With a cigar in my mouth and a
newspaper in my lap, I had been amusing myself for the greater part of
the afternoon, now in poring over advertisements, now in observing the
promiscuous company in the room, and now in peering through the smoky
panes into the street.
This latter is one of the principal thoroughfares of the city, and had been
very much crowded during the whole day. But, as the darkness came on,
the throng momently increased; and, by the time the lamps were well
lighted, two dense and continuous tides of population were rushing past
the door. At this particular period of the evening I had never before been
in a similar situation, and the tumultuous sea of human heads filled me,
therefore, with a delicious novelty of emotion. I gave up, at length, all
care of things within the hotel, and became absorbed in contemplation of
the scene without.
At first my observations took an abstract and generalizing turn. I looked
at the passengers in masses, and thought of them in their aggregate
relations. Soon, however, I descended to details, and regarded with
minute interest the innumerable varieties of figure, dress, air, gait,
visage, and expression of countenance.
By far the greater number of those who went by had a satisfied, business-
like demeanor, and seemed to be thinking only of making their way
through the press. Their brows were knit, and their eyes rolled quickly;
when pushed against by fellow-wayfarers they evinced no symptom of
impatience, but adjusted their clothes and hurried on. Others, still a
numerous class, were restless in their movements, had flushed faces, and
talked and gesticulated to themselves, as if feeling in solitude on account
of the very denseness of the company around. When impeded in their
progress, these people suddenly ceased muttering; but redoubled their
gesticulations, and awaited, with an absent and overdone smile upon their
lips, the course of the persons impeding them. If jostled, they bowed
profusely to the jostlers, and appeared overwhelmed with confusion. There
was nothing very distinctive about these two large classes beyond what I
have noted. Their habiliments belonged to that order which is pointedly
termed the decent. They were undoubtedly noblemen, merchants,
attorneys, tradesmen, stock-jobbers- the Eupatrids and the common-
places of society- men of leisure and men actively engaged in affairs of
their own- conducting business upon their own responsibility. They did not
greatly excite my attention.
The tribe of clerks was an obvious one; and here I discerned two
remarkable divisions. There were the junior clerks of flash houses- young
gentlemen with tight coats, bright boots, well-oiled hair, and supercilious
lips. Setting aside a certain dapperness of carriage, which may be termed
deskism for want of a better word, the manner of these persons seemed
to be an exact facsimile of what had been the perfection of bon ton about
twelve or eighteen months before. They wore the castoff graces of the
gentry;- and this, I believe, involves the best definition of the class.
The division of the upper clerks of staunch firms, or of the "steady old
fellows," it was not possible to mistake. These were known by their coats
and pantaloons of black or brown, made to sit comfortably, with white
cravats and waistcoats, broad solid-looking shoes, and thick hose or
gaiters. They had all slightly bald heads, from which the right ears, long
used to pen-holding, had an odd habit of standing off on end. I observed
that they always removed or settled their hats with both bands, and wore
watches, with short gold chains of a substantial and ancient pattern. Theirs
was the affectation of respectability- if indeed there be an affectation so
honorable.
There were many individuals of dashing appearance, whom I easily
understood as belonging to the race of swell pick-pockets, with which all
great cities are infested. I watched these gentry with much inquisitiveness,
and found it difficult to imagine how they should ever be mistaken for
gentlemen by gentlemen themselves. Their voluminousness of wristband,
with an air of excessive frankness, should betray them at once.
The gamblers, of whom I descried not a few, were still more easily
recognizable. They wore every variety of dress, from that of the desperate
thimble-rig bully, with velvet waistcoat, fancy neckerchief, gilt chains, and
filagreed buttons, to that of the scrupulously inornate clergyman, than
which nothing could be less liable to suspicion. Still all were distinguished
by a certain sodden swarthiness of complexion, a filmy dimness of eye,
and pallor and compression of lip. There were two other traits, moreover,
by which I could always detect them: a guarded lowness of tone in
conversation, and a more than ordinary extension of the thumb in a
direction at right angles with the fingers. Very often, in company with
these sharpers, I observed an order of men somewhat different in habits,
but still birds of a kindred feather. They may be defined as the
gentlemen who live by their wits. They seem to prey upon the public in two
battalions- that of the dandies and that of the military men. Of the first
grade the leading features are long locks and smiles; of the second,
frogged coats and frowns.
Descending in the scale of what is termed gentility, I found darker and
deeper themes for speculation. I saw Jew pedlars, with hawk eyes flashing
from countenances whose every other feature wore only an expression of
abject humility; sturdy professional street beggars scowling upon
mendicants of a better stamp, whom despair alone had driven forth into
the night for charity; feeble and ghastly invalids, upon whom death had
placed a sure hand, and who sidled and tottered through the mob,
looking every one beseechingly in the face, as if in search of some chance
consolation, some lost hope; modest young girls returning from long and
late labor to a cheerless home, and shrinking more tearfully than
indignantly from the glances of ruffians, whose direct contact, even, could
not be avoided; women of the town of all kinds and of all ages- the
unequivocal beauty in the prime of her womanhood, putting one in mind
of the statue in Lucian, with the surface of Parian marble, and the interior
filled with filth- the loathsome and utterly lost leper in rags- the wrinkled,
bejewelled, and paint-begrimed beldame, making a last effort at youth-
the mere child of immature form, yet, from long association, an adept in
the dreadful coquetries of her trade, and burning with a rabid ambition to
be ranked the equal of her elders in vice; drunkards innumerable and
indescribable- some in shreds and patches, reeling, inarticulate, with
bruised visage and lack-lustre eyes- some in whole although filthy
garments, with a slightly unsteady swagger, thick sensual lips, and hearty-
looking rubicund faces- others clothed in materials which had once been
good, and which even now were scrupulously well brushed-men who walked
with a more than naturally firm and springy step, but whose countenances
were fearfully pale, and whose eyes were hideously wild and red; and who
clutched with quivering fingers, as they strode through the crowd, at every
object which came within their reach; beside these, pic-men, porters, coal-
heavers, sweeps; organ-grinders, monkey-exhibitors, and ballad-
mongers, those who vended with those who sang; ragged artizans and
exhausted laborers of every description, and all full of a noisy and
inordinate vivacity which jarred discordantly upon the ear, and gave an
aching sensation to the eye.
As the night deepened, so deepened to me the interest of the scene; for
not only did the general character of the crowd materially alter (its gentler
features retiring in the gradual withdrawal of the more orderly portion of
the people, and its harsher ones coming out into bolder relief, as the late
hour brought forth every species of infamy from its den), but the rays of
the gas-lamps, feeble at first in their struggle with the dying day, had now
at length gained ascendancy, and threw over every thing a fitful and
garish lustre. All was dark yet splendid- as that ebony to which has been
likened the style of Tertullian.
The wild effects of the light enchained me to an examination of individual
faces; and although the rapidity with which the world of light flitted before
the window prevented me from casting more than a glance upon each
visage, still it seemed that, in my then peculiar mental state, I could
frequently read, even in that brief interval of a glance, the history of long
years.
With my brow to the glass, I was thus occupied in scrutinizing the mob,
when suddenly there came into view a countenance (that of a decrepid old
man, some sixty-five or seventy years of age)- a countenance which at
once arrested and absorbed my whole attention, on account of the
absolute idiosyncrasy of its expression. Any thing even remotely
resembling that expression I had never seen before. I well remember
that my first thought, upon beholding it, was that Retszch, had he viewed
it, would have greatly preferred it to his own pictural incarnations of the
fiend. As I endeavored, during the brief minute of my original survey, to
form some analysis of the meaning conveyed, there arose confusedly and
paradoxically within my mind, the ideas of vast mental power, of caution,
of penuriousness, of avarice, of coolness, of malice, of blood-thirstiness,
of triumph, of merriment, of excessive terror, of intense- of supreme
despair. I felt singularly aroused, startled, fascinated. "How wild a history,"
I said to myself, "is written within that bosom!" Then came a craving
desire to keep the man in view- to know more of him. Hurriedly putting on
all overcoat, and seizing my hat and cane, I made my way into the street,
and pushed through the crowd in the direction which I had seen him take;
for he had already disappeared. With some little difficulty I at length
came within sight of him, approached, and followed him closely, yet
cautiously, so as not to attract his attention.
I had now a good opportunity of examining his person. He was short in
stature, very thin, and apparently very feeble. His clothes, generally, were
filthy and ragged; but as he came, now and then, within the strong glare
of a lamp, I perceived that his linen, although dirty, was of beautiful
texture; and my vision deceived me, or, through a rent in a closely
buttoned and evidently second-handed roquelaire which enveloped him, I
caught a glimpse both of a diamond and of a dagger. These observations
heightened my curiosity, and I resolved to follow the stranger
whithersoever he should go.
It was now fully night-fall, and a thick humid fog hung over the city, soon
ending in a settled and heavy rain. This change of weather had an odd
effect upon the crowd, the whole of which was at once put into new
commotion, and overshadowed by a world of umbrellas. The waver, the
jostle, and the hum increased in a tenfold degree. For my own part I did
not much regard the rain- the lurking of an old fever in my system
rendering the moisture somewhat too dangerously pleasant. Tying a
handkerchief about my mouth, I kept on. For half an hour the old man
held his way with difficulty along the great thoroughfare; and I here
walked close at his elbow through fear of losing sight of him. Never once
turning his head to look back, he did not observe me. By and by he
passed into a cross street, which, although densely filled with people, was
not quite so much thronged as the main one he had quitted. Here a
change in his demeanor became evident. He walked more slowly and with
less object than before- more hesitatingly. He crossed and re-crossed the
way repeatedly, without apparent aim; and the press was still so thick,
that, at every such movement, I was obliged to follow him closely. The
street was a narrow and long one, and his course lay within it for nearly an
hour, during which the passengers had gradually diminished to about that
number which is ordinarily seen at noon in Broadway near the park- so
vast a difference is there between a London populace and that of the
most frequented American city. A second turn brought us into a square,
brilliantly lighted, and overflowing with life. The old manner of the stranger
reappeared. His chin fell upon his breast, while his eyes rolled wildly from
under his knit brows, in every direction, upon those who hemmed him in.
He urged his way steadily and perseveringly. I was surprised, however, to
find, upon his having made the circuit of the square, that he turned and
retraced his steps. Still more was I astonished to see him repeat the
same walk several times- once nearly detecting me as he came around
with a sudden movement.
In this exercise he spent another hour, at the end of which we met with far
less interruption from passengers than at first. The rain fell fast, the air
grew cool; and the people were retiring to their homes. With a gesture of
impatience, the wanderer passed into a by-street comparatively deserted.
Down this, some quarter of a mile long, he rushed with an activity I could
not have dreamed of seeing in one so aged, and which put me to much
trouble in pursuit. A few minutes brought us to a large and busy bazaar,
with the localities of which the stranger appeared well acquainted, and
where his original demeanor again became apparent, as he forced his way
to and fro, without aim, among the host of buyers and sellers.
During the hour and a half, or thereabouts, which we passed in this place,
it required much caution on my part to keep him within reach without
attracting his observation. Luckily I wore a pair of caoutchouc overshoes,
and could move about in perfect silence. At no moment did he see that I
watched him. He entered shop after shop, priced nothing, spoke no word,
and looked at all objects with a wild and vacant stare. I was now utterly
amazed at his behavior, and firmly resolved that we should not part until I
had satisfied myself in some measure respecting him.
A loud-toned clock struck eleven, and the company were fast deserting
the bazaar. A shop-keeper, in putting up a shutter, jostled the old man,
and at the instant I saw a strong shudder come over his frame. He hurried
into the street, looked anxiously around him for an instant, and then ran
with incredible swiftness through many crooked and peopleless lanes, until
we emerged once more upon the great thoroughfare whence we had
started- the street of the D---Hotel. It no longer wore, however, the same
aspect. It was still brilliant with gas; but the rain fell fiercely, and there
were few persons to be seen. The stranger grew pale. He walked moodily
some paces up the once populous avenue, then, with a heavy sigh,
turned in the direction of the river, and, plunging through a great variety
of devious ways, came out, at length, in view of one of the principal
theatres. It was about being closed, and the audience were thronging
from the doors. I saw the old man gasp as if for breath while he threw
himself amid the crowd; but I thought that the intense agony of his
countenance had, in some measure, abated. His head again fell upon his
breast; he appeared as I had seen him at first. I observed that he now
took the course in which had gone the greater number of the audience
but, upon the whole, I was at a loss to comprehend the waywardness of
his actions.
As he proceeded, the company grew more scattered, and his old
uneasiness and vacillation were resumed. For some time he followed
closely a party of some ten or twelve roisterers; but from this number one
by one dropped off, until three only remained together, in a narrow and
gloomy lane, little frequented. The stranger paused, and, for a moment,
seemed lost in thought; then, with every mark of agitation, pursued
rapidly a route which brought us to the verge of the city, amid regions very
different from those we had hitherto traversed. It was the most noisome
quarter of London, where every thing wore the worst impress of the most
deplorable poverty, and of the most desperate crime. By the dim light of
an accidental lamp, tall, antique, worm-eaten, wooden tenements were
seen tottering to their fall, in directions so many and capricious, that
scarce the semblance of a passage was discernible between them. The
paving-stones lay at random, displaced from their beds by the rankly-
growing grass. Horrible filth festered in the dammed-up gutters. The
whole atmosphere teemed with desolation. Yet, as we proceeded, the
sounds of human life revived by sure degrees, and at length large bands
of the most abandoned of a London populace were seen reeling to and
fro. The spirits of the old man again flickered up, as a lamp which is near
its death-hour. Once more he strode onward with elastic tread. Suddenly a
corner was turned, a blaze of light burst upon our sight, and we stood
before one of the huge suburban temples of Intemperance- one of the
palaces of the fiend, Gin.
It was now nearly daybreak; but a number of wretched inebriates still
pressed in and out of the flaunting entrance. With a half shriek of joy the
old man forced a passage within, resumed at once his original bearing,
and stalked backward and forward, without apparent object, among the
throng. He had not been thus long occupied, however, before a rush to
the doors gave token that the host was closing them for the night. It was
something even more intense than despair that I then observed upon the
countenance of the singular being whom I had watched so pertinaciously.
Yet he did not hesitate in his career, but, with a mad energy, retraced his
steps at once, to the heart of the mighty London. Long and swiftly he fled,
while I followed him in the wildest amazement, resolute not to abandon a
scrutiny in which I now felt an interest all-absorbing. The sun arose while
we proceeded, and, when we had once again reached that most thronged
mart of the populous town, the street of the D-- Hotel, it presented an
appearance of human bustle and activity scarcely inferior to what I had
seen on the evening before. And here, long, amid the momently
increasing confusion, did I persist in my pursuit of the stranger. But, as
usual, he walked to and fro, and during the day did not pass from out the
turmoil of that street. And, as the shades of the second evening came on,
I grew wearied unto death, and, stopping fully in front of the wanderer,
gazed at him steadfastly in the face. He noticed me not, but resumed his
solemn walk, while I, ceasing to follow, remained absorbed in
contemplation. "The old man," I said at length, "is the type and the
genius of deep crime. He refuses to be alone. He is the man of the crowd.
It will be in vain to follow, for I shall learn no more of him, nor of his
deeds. The worst heart of the world is a grosser book than the 'Hortulus
Animae,'* and perhaps it is but one of the great mercies of God that "er
lasst sich nicht lesen."
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